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Sunday, April 23, 2006

* breathes deeply *

Well, not feeling too good today, not that i'm sick or wat la.. Jus that.....

~~sadded~~

~~lonely~~

Yikes. So NOT me.. waha.. Anyway, feelin so "depression-like" cos' my wolf is already on the way to oz, since 3 hrs ago.. =(

Well, initially didnt really felt so sad.. When we left his house, everything was still ok.. Then in the cab i starting to feel very ~~sick in the tummy~~ .. Not really felt sick but i know i was my emotional-me again.. I could feel, literally, a stone in my throat that's making it impossible to swallow.. U know, very saddening to be sittin by someone u LOVE on the same cab with u and u know u're not going to take another cab back together.. I couldn't speak, cos i know that the "thing" inside my throat will spill out the moment i open my mouth.. It's not my fave ice-milo or home-made distilled water, it was tears... Well, so i jus kept quiet and looked out of the window, spotting all those "To Changi Airport" signs everywhere and of cos, those never ending tress that're stretching their way to the airport..

Hmm, it didnt turn out as bad as i thought.. Being a crybaby to those dear to me, it was really an achievement that i didn't shed a tear when i left dear after he registered.. I took mrt home and sms my dear for a while.. Then i took bus 300 home and when i reached my stop, i called my dear to hear his voice before he board the plane..Told him to take care and mux buy some choc back (haha) and the "thing" came back to my throat again.. Well, quickly hung up and i cried briefly in the lift cos i live on the 16th floor.. Haha.. Then at 8+, to my pleasant surprise, my dear called!! Said he on plane le.. Will call me with the oz sim card when he reached..

I then went online and chatted with my shitty frens.. Then log off to have dinner at 10+ and now, blogging endlessly as i cry ( or u can say, crying endlessly as i blog, haha ).. =")

Well, tmr is the new sch yr liao.. Firstly, i think i wont be feeling so "crybaby" in sch cos my [ shitty frens ] are all around and it's going to be a long day [ 9 to 5 ].. And i think that sickening loneliness only crept at ppl when it's all dark and quiet and windy.. [ sounds more like a ghost.. haha ]..

HOPE ALL [ SHITTYS ] WILL STRIVE AND ACE OUR PAPER FOR YR 2!!!!!

HOPE DEAR WILL BE SAFE AND SOUND AND ENJOY HIMSELF THERE!!!!!!!!!!! MUACKS

i miss you wolf-dear michael cai xiaowei :P
(dont give me any face cos' this is my blog :P)

DAE JANG GEUM AND XIAOWEI LOVER,

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